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Heidi Lau: Touch, Memory, and Clay
Heidi Lau: Touch, Memory, and Clay
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HEIDI LAU: When I change clay, the clay also changes me in some ways. So, I feel like working with my hands, I am able to pass a lot of emotions, a lot of thoughts into the clay. No matter how tangible [the clay is], [the thoughts and emotions] also come back to me. It’s kind of like a full cycle.

I feel like, just like most kids who grew up in the 1990s in Macau, [I] liked watching things like ‘Journey to the West’, as you know, [there are] kind of a lot of mythological creatures. So, there’s obviously a cultural familiarity to it. But also, as I read more into it as an adult, they could be seen as queer beings. They defy categorisation, and their existence in some way is kind of so rebellious to me. They are ungovernable, even in a self-destructive way. I’ve been working with clay for the last 10 years. And I’m self-taught in clay, so I actually approach the material like it’s a sculptural material from the very beginning.

I think hands are quite consistent in a lot of my works. It’s actually quite referential to the process itself. Sometimes I feel like using clay is such a reciprocal relationship. There are a lot of lessons. So, sometimes the hands look like they’re offering something. Sometimes it’s destroying itself, kind of like pulling a piece back out but frozen in the moment. A lot of the hands suggest one of those moulds. And I don’t even use mould[s] for any of my work. I think that the slowness of it is an aspect that I appreciate about the medium. I feel like every touch is recorded and intentional, because everything I put into the clay stays there.

In the last five years or so, I’ve been re-reading and researching this very old Taoist text called ‘Shanhaijing’, or ‘Classic on Mountains and Seas’. In the beginning, I was kind of referencing very specific creatures in the text, and I made installations by weaving [those creatures] with some of my family history. I don’t think grieving is necessarily only about grieving death. It’s also grieving about a time that is gone or will no longer come back, or grieving for a future that you thought was going to happen. This is the first time I will incorporate robotics in my work, and this is actually the first time I’m making my own creatures, but kind of based on a lot of the world-building methodology that I’ve seen and digested from reading that text so much.

I spent my most formative years in Macau and then came here for college. And now, having lived in New York for so many years, I mean it’s more intimate, it’s about homemaking in a foreign land, and there’s nostalgia for one’s home, but also [I] reject this really easy, comfortable belonging of homecoming that sometimes I think people who are exiled, whether voluntarily or involuntarily, [would experience]. You’re kind of straddling both the good and the bad of both of multiple places. And at the same time, it’s kind of like a double estrangement, because you’re so aware of problems in both places that you are kind of perpetually an in- and outsider of both. So, I think in some ways, even with making this work, for me, I come in and out of both of these roads.

I think I always want people to see my work by seeing all the different textures, all the different handmade [details], all the marks I put into it. There are some [viewers] that respond to it, if not intellectually, maybe emotionally, or [something] lures them into looking closer [to discover the] kind of fluid relationship between what’s handmade and machine-made. I think about life and death not as a polarity, but as a [continuum], because that’s how I approach the medium, [from an] emotional level and then the knowledge, like [using] our other parts of the body, as much as the logical brain.

What does clay remember?

A self-taught sculptor, Heidi Lau treats her chosen medium as a collaborator. Clay, she notes, enforces a slow pace; every press, redo, and pinch becomes a chronicle–a record of her decisions and hesitations. What appears might read as texture on the material’s surface is also a record ledger of time, capturing the artist’s every touch.

Hands recur throughout Lau’s work. They may seem to offer, to grasp, or even to pull themselves apart. For Lau, they are both subject and metaphor, invoking the labour of making and the layered meanings of touch. Though she avoids moulds, her hand forms can echo them, appearing as repeated shapes that suggest replication and a tension between the mechanical and the handmade.

I feel like every touch is recorded and intentional, because everything I put into the clay stays there.

—Heidi Lau

Growing up in Macau in the 1990s, Lau encountered a stream of mythic figures through Journey to the West and its popular retellings. More recently, she has turned directly to the Shanhaijing (Classic of Mountains and Seas), drawing on its menagerie of creatures to develop her own. To Lau, these figures are ‘ungovernable,’ defying categorisation much like the ‘queer beings’ she sees in them. She braids them with family histories, using the Shanhaijing to think through grief and the time that has passed, the futures that shifted course, and the lives we might have lived but didn’t.

Lau’s presentation for Sigg Prize 2025 marks her first use of robotics. Clay remains central, now sharing space with calibrated movement. From this pairing, alongside a life between Macau and New York, Lau builds a world that accommodates what she calls a ‘double estrangement,’ navigating the tension between belonging and separation, craft and mechanism, where her creatures inhabit the in‑between, creating a sanctuary where the past and the future can rest together.

Video Credits

Produced by

M+

Production

Moving Image Studio

Producers

Kenji Wong Wai Kin

Director of Photographer

Fred Cheung

Camera

Mak Chi Ho

Editor

Fred Cheung

Colourist

Fred Cheung

Subtitles Translation

Amy Li

M+ Video Producer

Ling Law

M+ Curatorial Research

Pauline J. Yao, Ariadne Long, Mankit Lai

M+ Text Editing

Amy Leung, LW Lam

Special Thanks

Heidi Lau, The Green-Wood Cemetery, Sikkema Malloy Jenkins Gallery,  Sewon Barrera

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